Hazelbrook, New South Wales
It took me three attempts as interruptions came from all directions …
Did finish though, and loved the stories of your recollections.
Reading your childhood and our lives together as a family … ‘with difference’,
I could feel the lifting of my mood, through your cheerful reference
To a story I had heard so many times before … from Mums point of view.
How different, yet still funny, is the tale as I am hearing it from you.
As I read it to the end, I felt the twinkle in my own eye … remembering
There were good times … moments, even days of laughter and of singing.
Suddenly I felt it, in body and in mind … that familiar sadness of my heart.
I could feel the deep darkening of my eyes, and again my heart was torn apart.
Once again I found myself pondering the question, just how experiences
Live in the hearts and minds of those who share them like old splotches;
Changing shape, hue and texture as they blend with age and personality …
And with those happenings unshared, to be remembered always differently.
Well, as you said of yourself, there was a time when I thought to write a book.
I thought it might clarify my own mind even if no-one else should look.
I sat for many hours to contemplate what form this tome should take …
I thought best to make it funny … if for no reason but the reader’s sake.
Then thought I, What point is there in writing to mind the reader’s feeling?
The fiction then would have no depth … no power for heart and healing.
So then I sat and did begin … then sat again to ponder … and to ponder.
Again began to write a memory or two … in mind began to wander.
In mind I wandered post to post among the muddles of my mind
As hours past, I laughed … I cried … as memories did grind …
Then race … elate …berate … muse … refuse … my swirling mind did almost break!
The waters of life’s memories washed hard within, creating in their wake
Confusion so wearisome that I could write no word of sense …
Worth showing to another … yet still … in my defence …
I resurrected in that time the grist for many a good rhyme …
Found food for thought, and stories to keep me writing into time!